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| | Looks like this job may be good for the next fiscal year. That will help a lot since the housing market is still tanked. Hopefully it will sell by then. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| Today was lots of doctor and lots of suckage. Basically, my body isn't working. Good news is that everything is treatable. They are working on scheduling and MRI and Brain Spect so that can set up a system for intravenous antibiotics. They are stronger than the oral ones and hopefully should get things working in the next year or so. A year sounds like a long time, but at this point I realize I don't even remember most of the last one, so if I can get myself together, it will be worth it.
Apparently part of the cognitive problems stem from a genetic anomaly. I will probably be on depin and cerefolin for life, but it seems that that will counteract a lot of the damage and keep things working. It would be nice to think clearly again. Lots of fancy medical words were thrown around today, but it seems to all come down to the fact that my brain is on strike and isn't making neuroconnectors. Research so far indicates this should start to correct that.
The fact that I am pretty much going to need tracking software to keep tabs on the meds I should be taking for the foreseeable future is annoying, but if I can get my brain back, it will be worth it. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Still no internet at home. C is fighting with Verizon. They will either get it sorted or not. We'll see. In the mean time I have a phone if you need to reach me. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I think I want to cry. 2 weeks off the antibiotics and everything is back. The headaches started again last night. I got used to feeling awful all the time, slowly over the years. I learned to compensate as I went along. Finally feeling better for a bit and then having it all come back is just depressing. I know my doctor didn't expect it to be fixed with just one round of antibiotics or she wouldn't have give me a prescription with enough for at least 2 rounds, but I'm frustrated. If was finally feeling good and had hope for my life to be something I lived again in stead of just something that was to be lived through.
I can't get the next set of blood tests until Tuesday. I forgot tomorrow was a holiday. Once I get the draw, I'm going to ask if I can go ahead and start back on the drugs. Either way, I'm sure I will in a week when the results come back. It is just temporary, but still. Grrrr! I had actually ordered some new books because I thought I would be able to read them. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | So far the only thing planned today that worked was I got my nails done. At least C got his car back. I was kind of looking forward to going out and being social. Looks like it will be an evening of curl up and hide instead. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Apparently I have been in my hole a lot longer than I thought. 3 years have passed by in the space if time I had account for as about a year. It is definitely time to get out of my hole more often.
I used to enjoy the rain and thunderstorms. I thought for a long time something eternal had changed to make me miserable during them, but it seems to have been an external change that took place. Glasses are the culprit. I wore my contacts instead this weekend and not having to deal with fogged up rain spotted glasses made a world of difference. I ended up going to the Cummington fair on Friday instead of Marshfield on Saturday. It rained all day, but I still had a great time. Demo derby in the rain makes for a fantastic mud slosh. :D Even the rides were kind of fun in the rain. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Anyone up to going to the Marshfield Fair with me on Saturday. Full day of fairy goodness followed by a figure 8 demo derby. ((INSERT HUGE FREAKING GRIN HERE)) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | With the benefits of modern American life, such as supermarkets and restaurants, one never has to stalk and hunt their dinner any more. Unless, of course, I involves a delivery person trying to find the side lobby of my work for the first time. It took almost 20 minutes to track this one down. I feel like a really earned this pasta. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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It has been a while since I posted. Not much has been happening. I haven't been doing much socially. Just going to work, reading a lot and trying to keep my life on track. Real Estate agent will be coming by again on Friday and hopefully I will finally get things going on the house. The fence, once again, was made unhappy by winter. I have a contractor coming by on Friday to give me a bid on that too.
I'm going to try and get out a bit this weekend and enjoy the change in the weather. I've had enough of winter. Maybe go catch a movie with a friend on Saturday, and if I can get myself up early enough for it, go to the May day event at Brandise before work. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I am now the proud owner of 2 new cat boxes. Some things really are worth throwing money at to make them go away. I'll replace them when I get home. At least tomorrow is dump day. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Panic attack! I haven't really had any for the last year, but they are back. I'm finally on antidepressants again and coming awake in my life enough to realize that I haven't been living it. I look around me and don't know where to start. Actually, I do, sort of. My house is a mess and needs to be cleaned up, but I stare at it and am totally overwhelmed. It is kind of amazing that I have kind of kept my day to day life going, paying bills, showing up for work and yet so totally and completely stopped living my life. Trying to start again is good, but I really don't know how. I need to start small. I am going to try for the kitchen. Not a major clean up, just a little, empty the dishwasher and have a sandwich. It is a small start, but gives some direction. The cat is also encouraging me to clean out her litter. 2 little things, but I need to start somewhere. Maybe dishes before litter would be a good idea. Done, sort of. I loaded the dishwasher and started it. I'll unload it tonight. That will be the before bed task I set for myself. It seems like the cat was right and her litter really needed to be cleaned. Chris had been taking care of that, or so I thought. It seems like he has just been adding more litter, covering up the mess underneath. Sad, but that seems to be a good analogy for my life. I've just been covering up, doing the minimum to keep it going and never really fixing any of the stuff underneath. It is going to be much easier to just get a new litter box and start over. Unfortunately, I can't do that as easily with my life. I'm going to a movie and then work. The movie is probably more avoidance, but I have had these passes sitting here for 3 months untouched. At least I did something today. It is a start. Small steps... small steps... | | |
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| | Ever catch something not quite right out of the corner of your eye and go WTF? I went to leave for work today and noticed something was a tad bit off when I went to climb into my car. ( Read more... ) | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| I guess I should have ordered coffee instead of hot chocolate. I just sent off half of this months birthday cards 2 to 3 weeks early. Oh well, happy early b-day all you Februaries.
A nap might be a good idea, except for the little detail about being at work for the next 7 hours. I'm not quite sure why I am so tired. I must have forgotten to fill my humidifier again. I slept a full night. Oh well. It is Tuesday, only a few more days to my weekend. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today has been slightly off from the beginning. I woke up thinking I was late for work. I wasn't and made it on time, but it kind of threw me off beat.
The roads are a mess. There is no good route anywhere at the moment. I wish staying home had been an option. I missed being in a massive pile up by inches. Some idea thought it would be a good idea to high power it around the plow in the middle of the highway which was pushing, unsurprisingly enough a large pile of slush and water. These ended up on top of all the near by cars and fortunately when our wipers cleared away the mess we still had an inch or 2 to dodge each other. Not easy in the slushy, snowy, ice roads, but somehow we all managed it. I'm not really felling much like being at work at the moment, but I feel even less like facing the roads to go home, so I'll just wait out my shift and try and pull myself together. :)
In other news, Microsoft has released a new product, Songsmith. You put in the vocals and it turns it into a song for you. It is bound to be a best seller. Just go to Youtube and see what it has done for some of the classics. White Wedding is one of my favorites so far. :P | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I seem to have gone into hiding since ARISIA. I did have a good time at the con this year though. I made several panels, actually made it to the sea shanties, instead of just intending to, played several new games and caught the Buffy sing along this year.
I also lost my car keys and came home to a busted pipe in the basement. We still don't have all the water out as the "wet" part of the "wet/dry" vac seems to have vanished. I had a spare key for the car, but the spare alarm sensors don't work. grrr. It took a bit but one of my co-workers finally figured out how to get around it so I can drive my car again. The pipe is fixed too.
I've spent most of this week hiding in computer games and avoiding my phone. Sometimes I think this is bad, but I think I needed a week of hiding. I'm almost ready to deal. I had planned on having an Agent come in on Tuesday and get the place on the market. It is now such a mess again that I don't want to live there, let alone think I could sell it. I guess I need to spend a bit more time cleaning.
On the upside, looks like I will be employed for a while. Chris has had a few interviews, but no offers. So it is wait and see there.
Maybe I go crawl back in may hole now. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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